I dont come on these sites much anymore. I belong to a group on another site but seems like I'm not happy there, I enjoy listening to those women, but i'm the only one now that doesn't have a baby yet. I got a BFP last sept and then at almost 7 weeks I miscarried. I was devestated as I've wanted this for so long. Now its about 4 years since we've been trying. I would have been due on Fathers Day, that was a very hard day and I didn't feel as if I could talk to my dh about it. Even now talking about it makes me cry. I know things are suppose to get better but it seems like it is getting harder and harder. To top things off my neighbor had a baby girl 2 days before my due date would have been, now everyday I'm going to have to see her baby girl grow up and I'm going to think of my angel that I should have too and they would have been born around the same time. I feel like I've gotten snappy at my dh and I feel like I pulling away from him. There has been times I just want out and shelter myself away from everyone. I feel like I can't talk to anyone about it because they wouldn't understand and everyone will just say "it'll happen when the time is right". AAAAUUUUGGGHHH i'm so sick of comments like that. I have one friend that I can talk to every once in awhile as she also experienced a miscarriage however she conceived again in 3 months. I get scared to bd w/dh as I fear that I'm going to get pregnant again but i'm going to miscarry. I'm sorry if I'm sounding selfish but I just need to vent. What has gotten everyone else over the hurdle of this? Have I not finished grieving? ↓
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Name: lilymummy | Date: Jul 21st, 2008 10:29 PM
Michelle I understand everything you feel. I miscarriaged before my daughter was born and then another 2 times since. There's isn't anything to say other that it will get better and you will conceive when the time is right, but it sounds to me like you need to talk to a counsellor or a professional who will help you. It sounds as if you are afraid to conceive which i can defiintely understand. we are all here for you. I am on a very supportive thread called "starting over after m/c or d and c, why not come over and join the supportive ladies there? But you are not alone even if it feels that way. all this pain you are feeling is what will make you a brilliant mummy when it is your turn. ↑
