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I am in the same boat. I had a tubal ligation in 2015 after having my youngest son was born via emergency cesarean due to placenta previa (basically its a placental abnormality that can ultimately cause you to bleed to death and you as well as your baby could die). So needless to say I didn't want to risk going through a potential dangerous pregnancy and delivery again so DH and I decided on the tubal.
However, a year after my tubal, I was admitted to the ER after experiencing very sharp pains going down my leg on my right side (from my pelvis to the bottom of my foot). I thought maybe I had an eptopic pregnancy but the ER doctor determined it was the beginning of my cycle. But that was actually the beginning of my frustration.
Over the next two weeks I had symptoms ranging from blurred vision, fainting spells, contraction like abdominal cramping. Extreme fatigue. I felt like I was dying. I was walking around and going to work as if I was in my nineties. It was awful. All while having allot of pregnancy symptoms.
I kept taking pregnancy tests, since I already have Three children I carried and delivered I know what it feels like.
This had been going on since November of 2016. I have, since November, had shorter and lighter monthly bleeding (starting and stopping only laying a few days), my breasts are very large and painful at times (I had to buy a new bra to accommodate the rapid growth change). I started to feel movement in my lower abdomin, every pregnancy symptom you can name I have, and to top it off I look visibly pregnant (about 5 months)! to the point where my employer had noticed and keeps encouraging me I continue to seek medical advise because they think I'm pregnant.
However i have done that since November. I have been to the ER more than 6 times over the past few months. I have changed my PCP already, have had countless in office appointments, have had over a dozen at home negative urine tests, 2 negative blood pregnancy tests, 2 negative ultrasounds ( one done in November and one done about a month ago). Meanwhile my belly is growing, I'm gaining weight. I'm walking, and eating like a pregnant woman. I have to come home to DH and three beautiful active boys and work a full time job dealing with sharp abdominal pain, strong back pain, food aversions and appetite loss, every possible pregnancy symptom you can think of, all the while going back and forth to the doctors who can tell me with absolute certainty that I'm NOT pregnant but can't tell me for sure why my belly keeps growing and why I am having Evey pregnancy symptom in the book.
I've gone as far as looking up info on Phantom pregnancies where women want to be pregnant so their body changes to accommodate their belief but there's actually no baby growing. However, I am not fanaticizing about having another baby. I almost died having the last one and if anything I was more concerned about why my body was changing and the doctors are so casually telling me that all of my tests are coming back normal and theres " nothing " wrong with me.
I've had string abdominal movement for the past two weeks and also cramping as I walk and it's getting harder to sit and move around. Please bare in mind that all three of my previous pregnancies I was NEVER able to work a job past the first trimester and always had to quit due to my difficulty carrying my babies and needing to be monitored. So now, in this moment, I feel the same way. The difficulty going to work and functioning properly due to my body telling me to sit and rest but I can't because this has been going on for months unconfirmed.
I "know" that I am pendant and that it's Not in my head. I don't need validation, I need help. But unfortunately, the doctors won't help unless you have a positive pregnancy test result, unfortunately.
I've had one ER nurse look at my growing belly and day "wow, does it always look like this?" And I had my new PCP look at my belly and ask if I always had an outtie belly button and I said "no, it only happens when I'm pregnant". He didn't respond. I mean c'mon, I when have the pregnancy line that goes down my stomach!
I've bought some prenatal vitamins to take everyday on my own. Im back to the drawing board to find a new PCP. I can't go on everyday feeling like this and what's worse I can't enjoy the journey either. I've read SO many stories of women who have suffered through this same kind of thing and in trying not to get depressed. My only recourse is my faith in Jesus and knowing that I take comfort in my relationship with Him.
Thanks for reading. If your going through doubts about your situation, PLEASE listen to your body and get a forth opinion if need be. Im possible on my tenth so never give up!