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Hello everyone, I am so sad today and just need to write it out. Today was my first official day back at work and also the first time I had to leave my baby girl with someone else. She is 10 weeks tomorrow and I managed to convince my employer to let me work from the house so I wouldnt have to come back in the rediculous 6 week timeframe that they only allow for paid maternity leave. I thought that by 10 weeks, it would be easier but its not at all. I cried last night, I cried in the car the entire way to work and I have been completely useless here at work crying as well. I have kept my office door shut and ignored all the "welcome back" and "great to see your back" comments. I keep telling myself, only a couple more hours and I get to go get my beautiful baby girl and hold her all night only to then realize that I have to do this all over again tomorrow!!! I would give anything to be able to stay home with her but the bills wont let me. Can anyone tell me that this will get any easier?
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Hi. I went back to work when Amaya was about 4-5 weeks old. I cried the whole way to work and then once I got there. The bad part was that I was starting a new job with new co-workers that didnt understand me. Amaya was getting to stay with my mother so I knew there was no one better. I left early the first day crying and called in the next. I wansnt sure if I would ever go back but I finally went in on Wednesday and I was fine. It was like I just needed those last few hours. It will get easier and the best part, you will start looking forward to those 3am feedings. I love it when she wakes up (usually around 5 or 6) and needs me. I sit and rock her and feed her and we just look at each other. She has recently started staying the night with my mother and that was hard for me at first but now I am ok with it. Amaya is 10 weeks today. I love her so much it is crazy. I say in about a week you will stop crying when you go to work. You will still miss her more than ever but you will make it. It was easier for me to take a picture of her and be able to look at it. I am dreading the next few weeks because she will start daycare. I finally found one today that I fell in love with. They were all so friendly and they offer all day viewing. We can watch our daughter online all day long if we want to. It will be like me leaving all over again. Anyway, I just want you to know it will get easier and you will love your beautiful baby more than ever. It will make you a stronger woman to know that you are provinding for your family and that you have a wonderful little girl at home just waiting to see your face. Good luck!
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Hey! How did it go today?
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Hi Stephanie,
Tues and Wed have been a bit easier, thanks for asking. I still tear up when I am dropping her off and get knots in my stomach as I drive away but at least I am able to concentrate on work now once I am here. I really appreciated your post, it helps to know I am not alone and that this is something that we all must deal with and will survive (hehe).
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