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I have had long loss of 2 ectopic pregnancy. I'm 33 an feel it will never happen. I totally don't deserve a child. My husband and i almost split because of loss bit now stronger than ever an ttc again. Its been since the end of may since last period so I took few pregnancy test an all have came up faint positives but cant get my hopes up. Doc told me 75 percent chance of another ectopic but blood work came up negative. When I took prego test for both ectopic were very dark positives but now uhhh they are just faint. I have gained belly weight but think its stress. Have had tingling in breast and this weird flutter sensations in belly and slight cramping an very sensitive belly. 2 weeks ago I had very light pink an brown bleeding only when I wiped a couple times an thought it was start of my period an my heart just dropped but only lasted bout less than a day and period never showed. Could I be pregnant or not at all just hopeful wishing? My husband pushed for pelvic ultrasound an the tech said she thought she saw the start of something but my doc said negative so we made appt for transvaginal ultrasound to double check. Please anyone thoughts please