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In September of 2008 a little bit before my daughter’s first birthday we found out that we were expecting our third. This was really unexpected because we were being careful. As the days went by things were going normally I didn’t have any symptoms what so ever, no tenderness in the br___t, no nausea, no vomiting. I did have one odd symptom I felt my stomach was growing too fast for how far a long I was, but I thought nothing of it. At 6 weeks I started to have stomach pain like cramps and as the day went on the pain intensified and as I was going to lay down to go to sleep I felt a gush of blood, scarred out of my mind because I was alone I called my husband who was at work, shortly after he came home. He took me to the emergency room where then they ran their usual test blood test, pap, and sonogram and as they seen that everything wasn’t abnormal they said the baby was ok. This for me was hard to believe because I had a strange feeling deep down. To find out later that they themselves could not accept the fact that they could not even explain what was going on. Why were my HCG levels so high?
I made an appointment with my OB/GYN who then did a Trans va___al sonogram when I was around 8-10 weeks along. As I looked at the screen I didn’t see anything that looked like a baby, I turned to look at the doctor and seen the concern in her eyes. As she wandered through my uterus I noticed that something was terribly wrong. She then explained that she didn’t see a baby but there is something inside my uterus and growing tremendously in size she explained it as a mass, like a tumor. I didn’t understand quite yet what was going on just that I was frightened. The doctor wanted to do a D & C to evacuate what was in my uterus. Usually when you have a D & C it’s not necessary for you to stay in the hospital overnight, although I had a complication of losing a lot of blood which I stayed overnight in the hospital. But I couldn’t wait to get home to look up online what a molar pregnancy was. And it helped me understand why I got pregnant and why there was no baby, a molar pregnancy is when a sperm and an empty egg meet and the egg keeps on growing since there is no embryo it forms into a mass which keeps on growing and could have pregnancy symptoms like a missed period. A molar pregnancy is very rare and after having it once your chances increase to have it once again.
Being at that I was concerned that I would not be able to get pregnant again this was my biggest fear. Even though we weren’t expecting to get pregnant at the time we did want to have one more baby in the future. I came to believe that now that this happened it would be impossible to conceive again. The doctor told me to wait at least three months to try and conceive again. So we waited after the three months passed we tried. And my period came every month and sometimes lasted the whole month my period was so irregular after the D& C for 4 months. After that we just didn’t use any type of precautions at all. As the months went by October came along which was a year after the D & C and once again disappointed. But I guess 2010 was the year for us because my last period was 01/01/2010 so I missed my period in February we were so excited I would not stop smiling for weeks until one day I seen history repeating. I was 6 weeks pregnant when I had my sonogram but this time it was no molar pregnancy it was a real baby there was one problem, we weren’t able to see or hear the baby’s heartbeat which scared me. I began to bleed slightly which turned into more blood and more fear. I went to the emergency room where they started the same tests as last time and then when they did the sonogram which had no results this time. My HCG levels were slowly going down. They sent me home to rest and check with my doctor the next day which was going to repeat a sonogram the following week. But that day things took a turn for the worst. I was going thru a pain that I will never forget. The pain started in my back and followed all the way to my lower abdomen and lasted for about a minute or two and came back every few minutes. I have never been through this kind of pain in my life. I have two kids that were delivered by c-section, so I had no idea what real labor was like. I went back to the emergency room also because I was bleeding way too much than normal there the nurse who was taking care of me told me that the pain that I was feeling were contractions but worst than labor pains my body was trying to get the dead fetus out of me. I stayed in the hospital overnight. That morning the doctor showed me my hcg levels were dropping which is when it hit me that there was no more baby. He asked me if I wanted to let my body do a natural miscarriage or a D & C I decided to take away the pain and go ahead and do a D&C and it was done. Now I have a more concern if I’m able to get pregnant and stay pregnant I don’t want to have to go through this pain again because it is really hard to have to go through this year after year.
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Hu Audreycueavas, I feel sorry for you, when I lost my baby, I was thinking why this happen to me, I was feeling why I am I am going thorugh like this but after I read your story, I feel more sorry for you. I am not sure about your question but I just want to give you some courage that Keep faith in GOD. I hope you will get answer from someone in this forum.I wish you all the best.
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