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Well I guess I should let you lovely ladies know my horrible news. As of last Wednesday I was a happy healthy 23 weeks along and freaking out because week 24 (where I lost my daughter) was quickly approaching and I was afriad of pre term labor or incompetent cervix striking again. With the help of you ladies and my husband, I was mostly positve and starting to believe I would bring this baby (s_x was to be a surprise) home from the hospital sometime in June.
Well Friday came I was 23w2d, dh and I hung out all day, went to lunch and took our dog to lay out on the beach. Around 10pm I had some pain in my tummy which I thought was contractions. I rushed to L&D thinking I would have to get a shot to stop my labor and then get released that night. How I wish that was only the case. The pain got so intense that I was begging for morphine. The nurses and doctors looked preplexed because the u/s was fine and the monitors weren't showing any contractions. All I really remember that Friday night is laying in severe pain wondering what was wrong with me, throwing up all over the sheets, nurses telling me to calm down because I wasn't in labor, and no I couldn't have more morphine. I also thought my cerclage MUST be ripping through my cervix for me to be in sooo much pain but after an internal that was ruled out.
Anyway, to shorten this up a bit around 7am the next morning I started to bleed they did an u/s and baby had no hb. I didn't want 2 c sections and NO Living Children so they did another procedure. While I was on the operating table my vitals crashed or something went terribly wrong and the doc had to re-open my abdomen and found my uterus to be ruptured and my placenta outside the uterus floating in about half my body's blood. Uterine Ruputure. I had a couple blood transfusions and am stable. Just really shocked over everything that's happened.
I can't believe I lost another baby. I can't believe I was blessed with a precious baby boy. I can't believe the doctor reccommened that I NEVER get pregnant again. Dh and I are only 22, and my childbearing years are over after 2 unrelated losses.
I don't think it has all sunk in yet. If surragoacy is out of our budget then my life is over.
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