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Hi, I browsed this site and wondered if anyone could give me some input. I've been with my fiance for 2 years out of 4 (a split inbetween) He always wanted a baby, he even named them! I however never wanted a baby. So it was an accident, but he persuaded me with all his loving ways and talked me into keeping our baby. Then he started living off me - he didn't work, I paid for everything, R140 000.00 later, I wisened up and cut him off financially. He ended up drinking at bars everynight and being verbally abusive, so I kicked him out. Eventually I secretly left the country - but was sent back because Europe doesn't look kindly on pregnant women arriving. So he found out and lo and behold picked me up at the airport. We lived out of town for 4 days when he hit me, kicked me, threw me to the ground and strangled me. I was hospitalised with a ruptured placenta, after 2 days I ran away - I hate hospitals. On return I went back to my neighbourhood, only to find out that he is on drugs, a total alcoholic, and has a relationship with an 'ex'-street hooker!!! I was shocked beyond belief. He not only stood up for her when I confronted him, but he denied it flatly - when the whole neighbourhood is speaking about it. I'm hugely embarrased and I've just cut myself off from everything. I nearly lost my child to a man who clearly used me for money and a home, who now thinks that he is the 'man' about town. He is permanently sitting by the local bar on the corner of my home, I can't move without him knowing exactly what I'm doing, I'm too scared of what he'll do if I have him arrested - asides from the fact that it would be done in public as I couldn't care to find out where he is staying to send the police there. Its hard paying for everything the baby needs on my own, but harder having him and her never further than a few meters from my home - she flaunts the fact they having s_x - he denies it.??????? No one knows what he did to me, he instead lies saying he left me!! Am I right just cutting him out of my and my unborn childs life? I'm a very strong willed person and will not tolerate anyone ever laying a hand on me, so its easy for me to walk away, but my baby........ I just don't want him near my baby, but am I wrong, what will my child say one day. He already used this baby trying to bribe me into not leaving him - things like ''baby will know his mother is a druggie, and alcoholic, a whore...'' and all sorts of untrue c__p. I feel his mental and physical abuse is too severe to be around anyone, so he and the hooker are a good match