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Im not sure what to do i am truly so confused. Any advice would be great. I am 9 weeks and had been dating a great guy so I thought for the last 7 months. We had talked about getting married and having a baby sometime before either of us was 40 (Im 37) Well I found out that I am pregnant and when i tell him he thinks I should have an abortion. I just dont beleive in it I am adopted myself. I told him I'd let him know what I decided on and he basically told me he thought we shouldnt see each other anymore. Here's where it is complicated he lives two doors away from me and I decided if he wanted to know my decision bad enough he would come and talk to me... and he hasnt my friend says to me say nothing if he is truly interested in knowing he will ask. I do agree with that but h__l he is also a guy and they are soooo clueless. If i let him come to me then I know at least he cares about knowing but everything inside me just wants to blast him for all of this. I feel very dissappointed in the guy i thought he was. Its not like we are 16 we both knew the reprecutions of it all. I dont think abortion is birth control. I am keeping this baby but the worst part is I have 2 children 14 and 11 who I havent told because it would make such waves with my ex husband. (who is not the father of this baby) . I just wish I could enjoy this time. I feel im so much better equipped to be a mom right now in my life I have a great job, a new home, and am just wanting to enjoy all of this. Do I go to my ex boyfriend and talk to him or let him come to me. He knows im pregnant and if he really wanted to know he is so close and could just ask.