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I recently found out I was pregnant and it was a shock. I was told by doctors that getting pregnant would be very hard for me and not to expect it. I was not expecting to get pregnant the first time by a man that I thought was finally the right guy for me. We had everything in common and he was doing well in his life. He didn't want a relationship and either did I. We both just needed someone to talk to and hold and the end of the day and that worked for me. After the first time he asked me to get a morning after pill and so I did. I was sure I didn't need it but I did it to keep him at ease. Seven weeks later I was getting moody and tired. I thought for sure that I was just getting sick again and having more issues with my cyst. It was actually him that asked if I could be pregnant. I laughed it off but took a test anyway just to be sure. It was positive. That bright pink plus staring at me and there was nothing I could do to change that. I text him at seven in the morning and told him that we needed to talk. He called me two hours later and I let him know that I was pregnant. The first thing he told me was that I should take care of it. That we both did not need this now and that there was no way he could be there if I kept it. I hung up on him and spend an entire day crying. He text me later to say he was sorry for saying what he did but that he still could not be a father. He also told me that he cared about me and wanted me to be healthy and let him know what was going on. I let him go, I told him it was okay. I was keeping the baby and he didn't have to be there. I told him that even though I didn't want to. I can't change his mind even though its killing me inside. I told him I wanted to hate him but i couldn't. I told him how I felt about everything but I was going to let him go because it was the right thing to do. I was hoping that he would see my side of it but no, he is still not wanting to be involved but still wants to know how I am doing. I am so confused. I just wish he wouldn't talk to me at all then tell me he cares and can't be there. Am I wrong to feel like this? I don't want to be alone in this.