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I found my "soul mate" when i was young. It was puppy love i guess he didnt appreciate me, but i kept thinking we were young and it wasnt a s_xual relationship. Years past we split and he left to start a new life in another place. I met someone and was with them for 5 and half years. He was my first "true love" he took my innocence he took everything, he lied cheated, mentally, physically and emotionally abused me to the point i felt he was all i had oh and he got a 14yr old pregnant. Then my "soul mate" came back, took me away from it all and promised to show me the life i deserve. I hadnt felt happiness like it so secure and safe. I have been with him now for nearly 6years and only last week, my son started school. I was approached by a man telling me his sister was pregnant with my boyfriends baby, due any day. I should mention my son is 4 and a half and i have just had a baby daughter 11 weeks ago :( My daughter was planned which hurts even more. I have had a tough relationship with my "soul mate" there has been betrayal before, lies, deceit, heartbreak. We split for a few months but obviously decided to try again. I beleived things had changed which is why my daughter is her. I have never seen some1 so devastated by what hes done break down infront of me. His actions this time are so intense i do wonder if this is finally made him see? I was told by him this was a drunk 1 night stand with his sisters neighbour, i found out yesterday thats infact it had happened twice and he stayed once, lots of messages and social network chats (something he has always had problems with) He has a drink problem not in the typical sense but none the less a problem, he binges and gets so drunk he makes trouble. I get the brunt of his horrible side when drunk (never physical only verbal) he has realised now all the problems he has drink, s_x, the thrill of a chase, selfishness etc. He has taking the 1st steps to gettin help and says he is willing to do whatever it takes to make this right. He wants nothing to do with the child he sees it as a mistake was never wanted. Wants to move us away from al this, i dont. I have no idea what is right to do here. I know that i have felt real hurt on his part and complete remorse but does that mean genuine change?
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