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Well I have been thinking about posting this.I just want other people that don't know me to have a look at my life.I have been with A for 5yrs. I met him when I was 7 mos pg with my daughter at the time.She calls him dad.I have been through alot with this man and I thought this was finally it.This is going to be MY husband. Anyway back in Dec I had a m/c with our first. After that he became distant.Then one day he said he loved me but wasn't in love w/ me anymore.He was ready to move on.I was hurt but I decided to let him go. After a month he called Jan 25 to be exact.He said he wanted me back and wanted us to move forward together. I accepted it.About a week later a woman calls my phone and tells me she had been with him that whole month.She said some things that only could have come out of his mouth.I was beyond hurt.He never gave me signs that he had been cheating. He did have to confess when she came to his house while I was there.After that we did stay together. In March I found out I was pg again.He wanted me to move out of the neighborhood I was living in and get a place for us to start over in.I was skeptical at first but I loved and believed in A.The agreement was he would pay the rent and I would pay the other bills.We moved June 8 our 5yr ann.Everything was fine I thought.Aug 12 he left to hang out and didn't come until the next day 11am.He came in talking about this isn't what he wants.The baby was a mistake.He's ready to move on.........I was so hurt I'm tearing up thinking about it.He said some horrible things to me.I'm like after all I have been through he could just up and walk out.So that whole week it was ups and downs.One minute he's ready to leave next he wasn't.Then he said we need time all this b.s. So that Fri I saw it with my own eyes.HE was coming out of Walmart with her!!I got out to confront him he was in shock at first then he got angry telling me to get back in my car.Leave him alone and he got in the car and left with her.He came later by that time my best friends were there and I had a friend changing my locks.He came in and said more things putting me down.I'm the one that was the bread winner in there and he had the audacity to put me down! Anyway he took his mattress his mom had bought for us because I couldn't sleep on the old one anymore. He is living back at home with his parents and he took the damn bed putting me on the floor. He has a bed at home but he would rather put it in storage than for me to sleep on it..When he thought I wasn't home he came over and p___sed on my front door,burnt my gate card up and went into the storage and took out the fuse to the hot water tank!! I haven't done anything to him!He was cheating on me and treating me with no respect and he had the audacity to come and p___s on my door! So when I confronted him about it he had no remorse and hung up on me.I know he's my unborns father but I pressed charges on him. He had no respect for me and my children so I have none for him. I know once he finds out I pressed charges it's going to be some drama but I am prepared. He started this mess if he had been a man and walked away like a man is supposed to do, especially since it was his choice to leave,then he should've done so. I'm still sad and mad about how he has done me.Now I have to do overtime and everything so I can pay this high rent by myself.I can't even go on maternity leave I have to work up until I have my baby just so I can keep a roof over our heads and try to get this baby some new things because I don't have anything I thought he was going to be there.When I see certains post about how sweet DH is I can't read it because it hurts so bad because it's not me.Well that's enough for now I'm about to start crying and I promised myself I wouldn't waste another tear on him.I will just take this as a lesson learned.What doesn't kill me will only make me stronger.Thanks for reading