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I'm so stressed out, I believe I'm pregnant AGAIN, I just had a baby 5 months ago and I can't believe that I may be pregnant once again. Yes, I did start birth control shortly after I had my baby, and I took my pills religiously, every morning. My bf and I waited almost 2 months before we had s_x, so I thought for sure the pill was in working order, I guess not? Anyways, the reason I'm putting this in the single and pregnant forum is because I'm pretty much a single mother, or acting as one anyways. My bf and I are still together, but our relationship is so unstable. I love him dearly, but we don't live together and he only sees me and our daughter once a week. It's been hard because I've pretty much taking care of her myself, with my mothers help whenever she can come into town. He helps me financially, big time, but he's just not physically there. I believe he's committent phobic, I've mentioned this to him many times, he denies it though, just says that he wants to wait until he can put a downpayment on a house, before we live together. Does it make sense? No, espeically now that we have a baby together.....Anyways, I think I'm pregnant again with his child. It kills me to think about raising this one alone too. I had such a difficult time with my daughter because she was colic, I couldn't imagine going through that again at this point in time. i do want another child, but not until my bf can committ to me 100%. I haven't taken a pregnancy test yet, I'm to scared to see the results. I've thought about the "what if's" and even thought about abortion. It KILLS me to think about aboring our child, because I do love my man and I do believe that children are a gift from God, but I really, really, REALLY cannot do this alone, again. It's been waaaaay to hard and I've spent many nights crying because of the feeling of being alone while my bf lives his life as it was before our daughter was born. I really don't know what to do? I feel like I'm stuck in a hard place (if I am infact pregnant again) I believe I am because my last period at the end of november. I've kind of hinted to my bf that I can't have another child with him until he committs to me and said that I'd probably opt for an abortion, he seemed a bit shocked with what I said, but what does he expect. He can't think he can just carry on this relationship, knocking me up and never actually committing to me. Holy c__p, I've never been so scared, worried and a bit stressed. I feel even more stressed then I did when I found out I was pregnant with my daughter. I just can't have another one right now. Not with how my relationship is, and especially not before I can settle. But like I said, the thought of an abortion tears me up inside.