WHY DO I KEEP DOING THIS TO MYSELF
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im 16 and almost 16 weeks pregnant and it seems like all i do these days is mess thing up for myself and push everyone away, i spend practically all my time cryin my eyes out and just cant make myself happy. i was great until my ex and i broke up shortly after i found out i was pregnant (hes 26), it took me so long to get over him because he was still in and out of my life weneva it suited him for s_x or jst to check up on who i was with or what i was doin. this eventually stopped and i moved on until he found out i was going out with my best friend, who he had always hated and been jealous of so here he was again, bak in my life tryin to emotional contol me which i guess i let him do bcoz i loved him. i met up with my ex and we started havin s_x again, behind my bfs bak, i cant belive how stupid i was but im a fool for this man. when im with him hes like the greatest person alive , he cuddles and holds me, talks about movin in with him( i kno this wil never happen, hes full of broken promises), and i just dont want to let go, i cling on with tears in my eyes but he just turns away and it breaks my heart all over again. my bf found out and cant forgive me for what ive done and i cant blame him but it hurts so much, he was the one person i cud rely on and now hes gone. i just dont know what to do bcoz i desperatly need some 1 in my life to reasure me. my parents are there for me but they dont understand and my so called friends are no were to be seen. y do i keep doint this, i cant keep up with my self!! sory just needed to vent .
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Your only 16 weeks pregnant with your ex and in that time you have found a new bf and then had time to cheat on him already...? (Did he know you were pregnant?) Girl, you move way too fast. Thank god your parents are there for you and perhaps you can seek comfort in your own family. They are familiar, safe and can be trusted. Any 26 year old inpregnating a teenager gives me the creeps!
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yer he knew i was pregnant, hes is/was my best friend and knows me better then i know myself thats why i feel so guilty about cheating on him but i just couldnt resist my ex. evrything always comes bak and bites me on the arse, i shud have known better and u sound like my mam lol wen u meantioned the 26yo creepy thing :P but hes nothin like ud probs imagine
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mammy, sorry to say, but it sounds like you have a lot of drama going on. What about just quitting all the drama, taking some time to yourself, and sorting through things a bit? Honestly, if either of these men care for you they will give you some space, wait for you to sort your feelings out, and decide what you mean. And by the way, I agree the 26 year old guy sounds creepy. When I was 15, I was dating a guy who was 25. It didn't bother me a bit at the time, and I didn't see anything wrong with it. But now that I'm older...**shudder**...there is a big difference in those 10 years in terms of maturity, life experience, and etc. etc. No offense, but it sounds like this guy is taking advantage of you.
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no offence taken, i apprechiate the advice ..
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You need to step back and take control of yourself before you think you can "decide" between the two men... Your parents understand a lot more then you think. They were once your age with their own set of issues. As for the creepy 26 yr old (maybe not creepy for you to date him, but def creepy for him to date you... Sounds like a loser no one his own age will date - no offence, teens like the "older guy" thing) he is using you. Period. He knows what to say to you to make you swoon - promises of moving in together, marrage, whatever - he offers the silver lining you want to see but believe me - that silver lining is an illusion! He is using you, period. Give it a few weeks and talk to your friend. Tell him you were screwed up in the head and you just need a friend. Don't expect him to jump in, but give it a shot and give him time. It might never get to where it was before and you should prepare yourself for that - again - your parents understand more then you give them credit for... Lean on them - that's what they are there for. Good luck!
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thanks for ur advice Mentally_Irregular, well the boy i cheated on is finally bak on speaking terms with me, we had a really long chat about why it happened, how we cant forget about it and move on, leaving it in the past because were stonger together then he is, all alone living with his parents (wat 26yo do u kno that does that, thats got a perfectly gd job and money to support themselves?), he has totally forgiven me and were now closer then ever, still just staying close friends tho. which i kno is probably for the best in the long run. reading your replys opens my eyes big time to how my ex is just a creep, u are right he does just say wat he thinks i want to hear so that i dont completly let go and push him out of my life. god i wish i could, then maybe me and my baby wil b happier, intsead of sad from all the upset hes caused me. sometimes i wish i never met him, harsh i know, bcos he give me this baby and im thankful for that but he just doesnt want me the way id love him too and i cant get over that .. *sighs* ...
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