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I'll try to make this short. I'll be 25 on Tuesday and I have a great 5 year old son now. My boyfriend and I just moved to Wisconsin 2 months ago to get away from a warrant he had in another state. We moved into the house above my mother, which she owns and rents to us. My boyfriend has always been a severe alcoholic and has depression problems, but a few months after we got together, he hit me on several different occassions. I realize this is not right and I should have left him then and there, but for some reason I stayed and things started to get better. We found out I am pregnant 2 months ago, and things have been hectic but we were getting along at least and he hadn't hurt in in quite a while. Neither of us have jobs ( me because I am on bedrest because of complications with the baby, him because he is supposedly waiting for a job to start now) My mood swings have been quite severe and yesterday out of the middle of nowhere I flipped out. We got into a huge fight, and I slapped him, he pinned me down but I fought hard and in the struggle I wound up getting a bloody nose.. This was the first time I have ever been hurt enough to bleed and he freaked out, I screamed at him to get the h__l out, and for the first time he said all right, your right I'm leaving, then comes my mothers boyfriend running up the stairs, grabs my boyfriend by the neck, and tries to throw him down the stairs. He tells him to leave and if he ever came back he'd kill him. Well, he left. I met with him last night to try and figure things out and the way it stands now, my parents say he is not welcome back at the house period wether he actually hit me or not. He says he thinks we should take this time to be apart. (Not together) He is staying with his friend and his friends wife, a block away now, and we are setting up meetings to see eachother at the park every day or two. This all sounds like its working out for the best, but I am now, 3 1/2 months pregnant, unemployed, alone in a home we made together with my son, I have no transportation, no money, nothing. We have never been apart, and I am freaking out. Obviously I have dealt with break ups before, terrible ones, but it has never affected me this way. Everyone thinks this is all for the best but me. I feel confused, lonely and heartbroke. I absolutely refuse to go through having a second child on my own with no father around. He is now free to do as he pleases while i am stuck at home day after day, confined to bed rest, with a five year old to take care of, a house to keep and no income whatsoever. I feel I am becoming redundant, but I am a very levelheaded person normally, and now I have come apart, and am entering a severe depression of my own. So now I have come to the point of, What do i do? thx to all who read this.