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so im not 16 weeks pregnant and the babys father all the sudden decided he didnt care about me anymore. weve had our ups and downs but nothing like this before. hes acting so childish and its driving me crazy. even though this thought kills me, i threw out abortion there. he wants it but i dont think he will be there for it at all. hes also in the army and will deploy for a year. he admitied to being scared which is a sign of growing up cuz he finally realized all the responcibilites he has now. he is stressing me out so much and its not good for me or the baby. he asked me why abortion and all i could think about is how we would just hurt it because of his fault and my stress right now, not saying i dont have falts but right now his are affecting the baby bad. his emotional roller coster is stressing me out, one minuet he says he loves me the next he cant stand me. one minuet he cares the next he doesnt. there is a lot more to it than that, like if i even wanna be with him still. he has done a lot of emotional and phyical damage to me. but of course hes so sorry. i think that im jsut scared, cuz i was reading and i read that ill still have my family, but i wont. i have no one. and right now im struggling with a place to live.. im 20 with a good job at a bank, but not good enought to be a single parent. so there, no one to be there for me and the sad thing is he wanted to have this kid with me. we were so happy, or as it seemed to me, then he turned away. btw he has a bad temper all the men in his family does. i can let my child be around that or us fighting and i dont want it to turn out like him. right now were going thru this rough patch and i try to talk to him about the whole abortation thing but he just runs away and says he wants to keep it, but im the one that will have to raise it by myself. my friend had one and said it haunts her but she would be ruined if she had kept it and tells me to do it or my life will be over... some friend. im not saying i want to cuz it goes againt every thing i believe but if you were in my situation its a struggle. i even went shopping and bout it an outfit... even with this on my mind. i cry every night on wheather i can live with that above my head or every night crying because i have no one there to support me with this child.. thanks for reading. some advice would be great right now. and honestly i want your true oppinion cuz im so lost and cant even belive im considering abortion. oh yeah and my family doenst know and i dont want them to if i dont keep the baby wheather is abortin or adobtion. idk if i can go thru with either.