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Hello all: I am 20 weeks pregnant with the man that I have been with for 7 years. We've been through a lot of c__p together. Honstly, I've been through a lot of c__p with him. I have had a real weakness for this guy and have been hurt by him so many times that it's not funny. I'm a very forgiving person which is why we've lasted this long. He's a whole lot younger than I am and he has a daughter from a previous relationship that he doesn't have that much contact with (big time baby mama drama). We had a big argument last weekend because he took my car and went out with his friends and came home 8:00 in the morning. I lost it!!!!! He didn't call me or anything knowing that I'm pregnant and we only have the one car. What is there was an emergency? He was scared as h__l when he pulled up and I was waiting for him on the porch. We've always had an issue with him staying out late. He get's with his boy's and forget's everything else. He argued " I was just out with them, we weren't with women or anything, that's all you should be worried about". He does things and we argue and I yell and cuss him out and it seems to mean nothing because I keep forgiving him. I had very little words for him throughout the week. I wouldn't let him sleep in the bedroom with me so he slept on the couch. As usual, after a few days we wind up speaking and we're back to normal. He stayed in the house the whole entire week (big sacrafice for him) and just as soon a Friday approached, he was itching to get out I could tell. I told him to go on and go out but please don't come back late. It's disrespectful as h__l. Now that I'm pregnant, I want to sleep all the time so I didn't care if he went out and I trusted that he wouldn't do that again. HE DID IT AGAIN. I completly lost it and told him to get out. I always tell him to get out and he know's that after a little while, I'll calm down. I can't do that anymore. I had to leave for a few minutes and when I got back he was gone. He called me a few days later from VIRGINIA!!!! Yes, I know I deserve better than being treated so badly. I know that i am pregnant and I'm happy to be pregnant. At the same time my heart is broken because It makes me think that he actually never really cared for me. And he can't care about the baby. Instead of him trying to fix it, he would leave to VIRGINIA. His mother and sister lives there and they've been so jealous of my relationship with him. He grew up in the house with just his mother and sister. Any woman that get's close to him has to compete with them. It's sickening and I tried in the beginning to be nice. They used me up for favors and actually stopped speaking to me when they moved to Virginia because they owed me money that was never repaid. Needless to say, I don't have words for them. He called me yesterday and the caller ID had his sister's name. I answered and asked him where he was. He said " you know where I am" (because of the caller ID). I had such a lump in my throat. I just said" okay don't call me anymore" and I hung up. I could hear him saying he needed something but I just hung up. I changed my phone number last night. The reason why I changed the number is because he thinks he can leave the STATE, call me becaue he needs me to send him something? His plan is probably to make a few calls to so call check on the baby and we get talking again and I ask him to come back. I can't do this anymore. At the same time, I'm really heartbroken about it. I can't believe that he would treat me so badly while I'm pregnant with his baby. I cry and cry all the time. My friends are all glad I changed the number. I want him to pick up the phone whenever he feels good and ready to call and can't call!! This way I'm not sitting here watching the phone not ring. I know I am the one that told him to leave, but he can't live with me and disrespect me at the same time and he's not trying to change. I've been the only person sticking by this man's side for the last seven years and this is what I get? I've miscarried 4 times before I met him and this is the longest that I've been pregnant. Im trying to be strong but I'm weak. This feels so bad and I can't sleep at night. How does one get over heartbreak while pregnant?