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My partner and i were expecting our first baby and i was so very excited and i was sooo looking forward to being a first time mum my first scan to date at 10 weeks showed a healthy baby but measuring a week behind my dates, but tragedy struck when my 13 week scan reviled that even though there was a normal heart beat, movement and normal growth my little baby had a problem, her neural tube did not close completely Called Anencephaly, which meant while ever i carried her she would live and if i chose to go full term her life would be cut short in a matter of hours or days- i was told my baby was incompatable with life! So my partner and i made the decision that no one should have to make and decided the fair and proper thing to do was to terminate my pregnancy as much as it pained and devestated me. So on Monday the 11th July 2011 we lost our baby at 14 weeks and 2 days via a D&C. i have cried 2 weeks non stop after the procedure. I am completely devastated and am very much on an emotional roller coaster, thanks also to crazy hormones i guess, preg test still read pos. Im sure i have done the right thing as our baby would have suffered, ive tried researching Anecephaly but almost all sites are Pro- Life which makes me feel guilty :( i was wondering if anyone else has been in my situation?? some people dont understand and just call it a miscarrage but i feel differernt we had no choice but to make a decision, not sure if it would have hurt any less if it was a natural miscarrage??