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I'm 20. I make good money and I attend college online. My boyfriend of 5 years has a good job as well. We own a car and have lived in the 3 bedroom house we rent for 2 years. I hadn't really thought of having kids any time soon until this month... Maybe I just caught the baby bug (my sister just had her 2nd child, quite a few of my close friends are pregnant) But, when I was 5 days late this month I was secretly very excited. The day I decided to take the test my period started. I told my boyfriend it was a false alarm and asked him what he thought about maybe trying for a child in the near future... maybe not in the next few months, but in the next year or so. He just said he loved me but he thought it would be selfish to have a child anytime soon. Even though I know things wouldn't be perfect I still can't help but feel very disappointed. Right now I have the ability to stay home and still make good money.. a chance I will only be able to have for another three years. Then I will have to focus more on a career and god only knows if I will ever get the chance to be home AND financially secure again. Staying home with my children in the first year or so is something that is very important to me. I want to br___tfeed and to teach them in this early stage of life. I don't want to leave my baby at daycare and worry all day while i'm at work. I know that if he says no I shouldn't press the issue (and I wouldn't) but am I crazy to feel like having kids now is a good decision? I would like to add on that I don't smoke drink or party, that I have a wonderful support system (his family and my older sister) and that I have always know that I may have some problems trying to get pregnant... so the idea of waiting too long has always been scary. Also, my mother passed away when she was 39 and I have always worried that if I waited I may not get the chance to see my kids grow up.