What S Wrong With Me -pg119485574176
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I don't know how to explain it. My dd is 2 weeks old (she's my second, my first is 8yrs old). Since the day she was born, I started feeling the baby blues. But now it's turned into overwhelming fears about my baby's health. I'm afraid of sids, I'm afraid of her catching a cold, I'm afraid of losing her in some way, and I don't sleep well at all. Her little face is so beautiful and alot of times when I look at her, all I can do is cry. That's all I do...all the time. I don't like nights because I'm afraid of something happening to her during the night. I know I have PPD, as I had it with my first, but it seems so much worse this time around. I love my baby so much, and I feel like I have to watch her every minute. I'm afraid of everything I do being wrong and dangerous for her. I know this sounds like alot of rambling, but I had to get it out. I can't even sleep right now. I don't want to take any medication because I'm nursing, but I just don't know what to do. I dont want to tell my doctor, because frankly I'd never be able to get through explaining my feelings without bursting into tears. I don't know what to do. Dh is supportive but there's only so much he can do.
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all you can do is go to your doctor sweety sending hugs your way
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I'm really sorry you're having to go through this, it sounds terrible. I would definitely encourage you to go to your doctor, maybe even take someone with you like dh who can help you relate what you need to say in case you do fall apart. The thing is with your worry and sleep deprived state it's going to keep building until you crash since all of these things just add up and make you more emotional. I wasn't feeling this to the extent you are but during the first two weeks I was crying over everything and so stressed out and it was all made worse by the fact that I was functioning on three hours of sleep (max) per day. For two days straight dh took over everything but b___stfeeding so that I could crash in between feedings. When I was up to staying awake and wanted to catch up on cuddles with baby dh would catch a few zzzz. After that I was more stable which was better for everyone and we were able to develop a routine that worked for everyone. Good luck and I hope you feel better soon.
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im so sorry :-( i am worried about ppd, although i still have 5 weeks until my due date, i was just thinking about the terrible anxiety i can get sometimes where im almost obsessed about worrying...i have had this in moments of this pregnancy and its almost a paralyzing fear where i cant think of anything else...one thing that im considering is buying one of those angelcare monitors so that i can sleep at least maybe a little better without worrying, if you havent heard of those maybe look one up it might help...its like how my fetal heartbeat monitor has been a lifesaver to me during the pregnancy when i worry. i hope you start to feel better soon!
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Did you have a hard pregnancy? Sometimes that can contribute to these feelings. You need to talk to someone about this, someone who can help you to allieviate these fears. I feel that way towards my lo on occasion but I think it's normal at times to feel that way, but not constantly. If you can't talk to your Dr. and don't want to take meds then you should speak to a counsellor about this, talking it out with someone may help you without having to take anything while nursing. If it doesn't help then maybe you should think about not nursing and taking meds. After all, your mental health is very important for you and for your baby.
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I just wanted to tell you that the number one thing a baby needs is a happy mom. I started on paxil at two weeks pp and quit b___stfeeding. She's 3 months old and happy as ever and I'm enjoying it all immensely. The biggest issue for me was also bfeeding. Definitely talk to your dr and like pipa said bring dh with just in case you can't complete the story. Good luck Mrs. Steve!
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