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I had an abortion at 6 weeks gestation. Me and my partner have been together for 6 years. I am 24 years old. After finding out I initially knew I had to terminate as the timing wasn't right and the pregnancy was totally unplanned. I booked my abortion straight away, a week later at the clinic they couldn't find a fetus so I was told to come back ten days later for a rescan. Between that time our decision kept changing, we were weighing up the negatives and positives. Ten days later I went through with the termination and the fetus was found on the ultrasound. I regret it so so much, not a minute of the day goes past where I am not thinking about my baby I aborted. I'm in such a low place and I hate what I have done. I know that one day I will have a baby when the timing is right but I can't help but think about what I have done. I try to push it to the back of my mind, maybe it disappears for a second but then I get all upset again. I know my hormones are all over the place as the termination was only 3 weeks ago, but I hate how I'm feeling. Did anyone else feel this way after termination?
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I am so sorry for how you feel. I am 44 my son is 22. I got pregnant in December 2016 it was a total shock. My partner didn't really want to keep it, he has 2 boys age 12 and 13. To cut a long story short I had an abortion at 6weeks 3 days. I knew the time wasn't right so initially I felt relieved but now 4 months on I deeply deeply regret the abortion. I feel so sad about it and think that I made the biggest mistake of my life. I have had trouble with my hcg levels, they are still not back to normal so I'm having blood tests every 2 weeks to check them which is a constant reminder. It brought tears to my eyes reading your post because I know exactly how you feel, it's on my mind all the time and sometimes I feel like I can't breath because I've done something so bad. Hugs to you.
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My last post was in reply to Gelly0142.
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thanks so much for your reply. Its really comforting to speak to people who have/are going through the same as me. I wish I had seeked counselling or advice prior to getting the abortion, but I just dont feel there is enough help out there before making the big decision, which is probably why lots of women like ourselves feel such deep regret afterwards. I know its still early days for me and its only been 3 weeks so my hormones are still all over the place, I pray and hope that my regret and anger does eventually go. I know that I'll have babies eventually as im still so young, but I hate what I have done. Each and every day its in mind constantly. I feel trapped and have nobody to speak to, although my partner has been hugely supportive but its not the same as he hasnt had to endure the physical and mental effects of the termination. I truly hope that one day you realise the decision you made was for the best and always remember when you were having the abortion, your reasons were right based upon your decision. Thinking of you and wishing you all the best x
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My heart goes out to the both of you, for going through such a sad and difficult experience. I hope that you will soon find the strength to move on and live life to the fullest. Good luck to you both.
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