This Is My Journey

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bebe1 - May 12

Dear all, I decided to journal my TTC cycle from this point on (from ovulation) because I have a pretty good feeling about this cycle and also because I have such a strange cycle and I want to offer info that might help anybody else. I will update as I go until AF or BFP and I will answer as many questions as I can. Please add your comments if you like. DISCLAIMER: I am NOT an expert and this is not an attempt to prove anything. I am as clueless as any new TTC'er could be, I am only sharing what happens to me in particular and I am hoping you may jump in and contribute your 2 cents. Thank you for reading me.

 

bebe1 - May 12

For starter: me:28 (vegetarian wanna-be vegan), dh (vegetarian): 38 TTC#1 for 1yr ++ wt: 121- 124 Lbs. CD89 or 1DPO...yes I have ridiculous cycles. unexplained infertility, unmonitored, prenatals/Barlean's organic oils/ vitamin E oil (5 drops a day), weekly excercise, lots of water and rest as much as I can. Tried u/P Clomid, fish oil, mucinex, instead cups, opk's, temping, cm and cp monitoring. DH on multivitamins and chia seeds (diabetes prevention). Lots of water. We are not on a BD schedule, we just try to enjoy each other. We are both eager to get pregnant!

 

bebe1 - May 12

background: I started TTC as soon as we got married 2 yrs ago. Hubby actively joined in the journey about a year and so ago. Then we had to stop as I had to undergo many surgeries (unrelated to our trying to conceive). We picked up in november 2009 and I had a 40-day cycle. Anxious, I did my 1 cycle of U/P clomid 47- day cycle (december through feb.) and I experienced heavy bleeding for a whole 5-6 days no cramps whatsoever (very strange for me, I always have serious cramp pains that put me out for a few days). Now I am going through the infamous 88 - day cycle (feb. through may) and this is where my journey begin.

 

bebe1 - May 12

Recap and update: I am currently on CD 89 and I believe now DPO 1. Yesterday, I saw EWCM for the first time here is the lay out: CD 82-CD 84: Extremely high libido (hubby over the moon). CD 84: Sleepy, depressed and beside myself. Felt strangely tired. CD85: Exhausted still and sleepy. funny taste in mouth and nauseous when I tried to eat. Felt better after going for a walk in the park. CD86: Surge of energy, playful and hungry. Strangely enough, I took a few bites and felt nauseous. later on ate everything in sight. could smell everything. Moodiness set in. CD87: Could smell everything and exhausted. Pinching and poking feelings right side (where ovaries would be) on and off, strange activity inside left b___b. Slept like a champ. Woke up early next day. CD 88/ DPO 0: Cried listening to a program that I've listened to several times before. Feeling depressed over low temperature 97.52. Could smell everything, nauseous and glob of EWCM on toilet paper after BM. Never seen so much and went on a search frenzy (posted inquiry on twins board). Checked Cervical Position (CP) and found it high and medium (Slit seemed more open than before). Poking and pinching on the side intensified so much I could feel my back. Went to exercise and took it easy really easy because I was in pain. I felt low grad shocks inside left b___b too. Lower back pain remained for rest of the night. Moody like you would never believe. (poor hubby) BD'd to cover base. Lots LOTS of cm. laid in bed til morning. CD89/ DPO1: Per yesterday symptoms, I a__sumed I ovulated plus temp was slightly higher this morning: 97.90. Back to normal. dull pain on right side noticeable only if I purposely look for it. Feeling GOOD! Hopefully it is a good sign... notes: Regardless of what the outcome may be (of course would prefer a BFP!), I am so excited to pin point ovulation. The symptoms that occurred yesterday were unprecedented especially since I was beginning to feel so helpless with this longer than ever before cycle.

 

bebe1 - May 12

By the way, I did NO clomid this cycle. Last cycle freaked me out. As for opk's, I ran out and I gave up. No charting either. For those who might wonder about the Barlean's organic oils. It is a product that I got from the health store. I bougth the "essential woman" bottle which is made organic with evening primrose and flaxseed oils, and added lignans, Isoflaones and rosemary. I get my omega 3, 6, 9 from this and I truly believe it has regulated my cm quant_ty and quality which used to be low and tacky most of the time.

 

simone7399 - May 13

Hi Bebe! This is a great idea!!! I have been trying to conceive # 1 since February and I am so discouraged:( I stopped birth control pills in February and I had my withdrawl bleed for about 4 days and then my next period did not come until 40 days later and was very short and light. Then the next month I tried doing the ovulation kits to see when I ovulate and they were all negative all 14 of them:( Then this last past after another long 45 days I got my period. I went to the doctors yesterday and they did some blood work to test my hormone levels. They said that it can take up to 18 months to get my periods regulated again. I am so frustrated and so overwhelmed with everything. Do you know why your cycles are so long? Do you know forsure if you are ovulating? Good Luck and lots of baby dust!!

 

bebe1 - May 13

Hi simone, ever since I can remember, I've had long cycles but these averaged about 35 to 40 days. Then I went on the pill and everything got messed up. When I got off of it, I went a whole 6-month period without AF. I didn't mind at the time but my ob (at the time) hinted that it might be an issue with my thyroid, but never told me if her prognostic was test-based. Then I focused on my career and ate healthy and lived the stress free life. My cycle regulated itself. Still long but predictable at exactly 35 days per cycle. Recently, I got seriously ill and my cycle went bezerck all over again. Went to the OB, got checked/monitored/and tested (that is how I know I ovulate). Everything is fine, so they say, so she sent me home to try naturally for a year (I'm halfway through). I hated that idea but she told me she could not diagnosed me as "infertile" because I was healthy and (per insurance company criteria) I needed to try to conceive unsuccessfully for a whole year... Thank you for the well wishes, desperately needed on this side! How 'bout you? what is your ob and yours TTC plan? Now there is a lady here named Buffi R. (you can find her on the twins/multiples board: clomid success stories for may 2010). She's sweet and although she's not TTC she's gone through the stresses and she's been helping a lot of TTC'rs understand what is going on. I'm sure she can give you a tip or two if you ask. Many blessings for your journey Simone!

 

bebe1 - May 13

Hello ladies, here is my Update: Today is CD 90 or DPO2 (much better). Temp went down .20 degrees F and that saddened me a bit. My nose is super sensitive today. I can smell my whole house! my lower right side feels sore: Kinda like I did way too many side crunches. It is noticeable ache yet not the "Ouch-YEOUCH" type of pain. Besides that, I bd'd one more time to cover the whole window. I felt less lubricated (No preseed these past 2 times) than last time. That is it so far.

 

simone7399 - May 13

Hi Bebe! Thanks for all the info! It makes me feel a little better:) I got married in December 2009 and moved to Japan at the end of December right after our wedding. My husband is in the Navy and he is currently out to sea until December of 2010. He just left last Sunday:( I stopped the pill in February and we tried to conceive every month. I guess I should have given my body sometime to readjust. I couldn't pinpoint when my periods were going to arrive so we just tried to bd every other day. I will be going back to the States while my hubby is deployed and I am hoping to get everything straightened out while I am home. I will definitley try charting!!! Do you like preseed? I have heard alot of good things about it. Keep me updated!!!! I am praying for you!

 

bebe1 - May 14

you are a Newly Wed! Congratulations! and many many blessings. Simone- thank you for sharing your story with me. How long will hubby be deployed? I believe that your cycles will balance sooner than they told you. Are you on a specific regimen until you return to the states? Also tell me how do you keep yourself from stress? I LOooooVe preseed. I would recommend to get the set that provides an applicator b/c it is less messy. But overall, it smells good, it lubricates instantly (dries fast when exposed to air). Hubby loves it so much that he keeps it on his side of the bed. I tried charting but it stressed me out (believe it or not). But that's only because I wasn't sure of what I was doing. Lost faith and was not ready to take my time (instant gratification). I am still encouraging you to chart (educate yourself about it ahead of time). Like you said many ladies have a positive outcome. Thank you for your prayers.

 

bebe1 - May 14

Update: DPO3: 97.85 temp. what's up with the yoyo effect? I am a bit crampy. Sporadic and it hit right in the middle of my uterus. I have a bit of heartburn. Low grade pulses in both b___bs: Not painful. I still have a sensitive nose and funny taste in my mouth. Today i woke up to a huge white-head on my right cheek. I noticed small pimples about the edge of my whole face. I am not making a big deal out of the pimples since I usually have acnee as I get closer to my period. My lower right back (what a mouthful!) feels bruised: I can feel it more at times.

 

bebe1 - May 14

Almost forgot: my cm is milky looking and my cervix is still high and medium. Can't decide if the opening is closed or open. I feel "lazy".

 

simone7399 - May 15

Hi Bebe, Thanks!!! My hubby will be deployed for 6-7 months:( So far I am not doing that good with the stress of him being gone. It's so hard for me to be in a different country and be away from friends and family. I think going back to the States is going to be good for me and maybe I won't be so stressed. Maybe then my period will finally mellow out. I am keeping my fingers crossed:) I can't wait to try out the preseed!!!! I think I will by some and then try it out when he gets back!!! I will probably try and do the charting and see how it goes for a couple months. My hubby just wants to do everything natural and not try so hard. He says it takes the fun out of it and it puts to much pressure on him. I totally agree, but sometimes I just want to make sure I am doing everything I can. I am sure you know how it is. So when are you going to test? I am still praying for you and I hope this is the month for you!!! I love reading your post!!! They give me hope!!!!

 

bebe1 - May 15

Simone sorry for hubby been gone for a while... I suppose that'll give youenough time to get the charting going. I'm hoping you'll move back to the states really soon so you can be with your peers. Stress-wise, I excercise weekly and it helps like you would not believe. Plus I gain the benefit of well being in general. I use to be so eager to conceive already that I stressed myself too much. Nowadays, I am still anxious (that you knew already), but praying, relaxing, excercising, and writing about TTC help pa__s the time. It feels so good to share with folks that understand where you are coming from. I am testing on the 22/23 of May. Remind me where you are on your cycle...

 

bebe1 - May 15

Update: CD4: I woke up 1 hr early and My temp was a mess: 97.76! Oh well. My nipples are a bit sensitive. I can feel my whole lower back as if AF was about to start soon. I felt sleepy but I was tired from a restless night. My cervix is high but my cm "non-existant" I have never examined a piece of toilet paper with that much scrutiny. Funny taste still. I could swear I had ammonia on my hands: I actually asked hubby to smell my hands amd tell me that it was't in my head, he said he couldn't smell anything. I finally couldn't stand the smell so I went to the bathroom and scrubbed my hands clean... or until I was sure the ammonia had washed away. Tonite, I feel low-low-low cramping and a bit of nausea.

 

bebe1 - May 16

OOPS! I Meant DPO 4 up there...

 

bebe1 - May 16

Update: DPO 5: My temp was 97.91... yoyo-effect still. I feel queazy, a bit nauseous from the moment I woke up. I'm sleepy at this time (my eyes burn), and I am cranky over something stooooopid hubby did. He can be unbelievable at times. I have sensitive nipples (only sore if I pinch them). The b___sts are still the same though. My lower back doesn't bother me as much. I noticed no cm still... haven't checked my cervix yet. I can feel lazyness setting in for me today.

 

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